I believe that this is bothersome to your part. I can see and smell trouble here.
So if you can do something why not go to a Psychiatrist?
ask advice, on him.
And can you elaborate your problem?
So I can see the picture on a wide scale?
This guy you say is he your husband?
In that case, still shower him with love.
Quit your job whatever it is.
It isn't just worthy of you losing your strengths.
There are a lot out there you can look.